Where am I Going, Where Have I Been...

Hiya, folks! Well, I'm back. :)

If you follow the blog, you know I've been gone the last week or so. It's been interesting. The boyfriend and I took a sort of bittersweet trip back to Boston. The sweet part was being able to see some friends we haven't seen in way too long. The bitter part was why we were all there to begin with. If you've been here a while, you might remember that I lost a close friend around this time last year. 

Well, last weekend was a reunion of sorts, and  the first of an annual benefit concert in his name.  A very weird kind of celebration, where the whole night, I felt like crying, but was laughing my ass off, being around some of the best people in the world. So, it was awesome, to spend the night with so many of the people in my life I really consider my family. But beyond devastating that one of them was missing. Without sounding outrageously corny and cliche, it was a pretty big reminder that life can be short.

However. It was an equally big reminder that life can be long!  And if, for whatever reason, you are living the wrong life, it can seem endless. And not at all fun! Who the hell wants that!?

It's become laughably obvious that loving every possible minute of  life, taking full advantage of every opportunity, is really what it's all about. There's absolutely no sense in spending it with your priorities all out of whack. Putting up with things, or letting people or situations guilt you or lull you into less than you want, is really just an enormous waste of time. And there's no reason to waste time, lol!

As a result, plans I've kind of thought I'd ease into over the next few months have become immediate plans. Because, really, when you know you want to change things, why on earth should you wait?  Honestly, things have been changing behind the scenes for a while already. But, I haven't fully committed to all the changes I need to make, because, well, I'm not fully sure why. I guess big changes are scary, so instead of leaping from one life to another, I've kind of been keeping one foot in both. Which basically means I've been making tons more work for myself than is necessary, and living in a weird, unnecessary kind of limbo, just to avoid rocking anyone's boat. Silly, right?

So, what is all this rambling leading up to?  Well, it's time for me to close up shop.

I opened the Smidge House Etsy Shop because I wanted to be part of the sixth scale world, share what I could do, and just see where it would lead. Fortunately, it's led to bigger opportunities than I could ever have imagined, and jobs I never really knew existed! :) My life and career have changed in huge ways in the last few months, as a lot of you know. I can't tell you how happy it's made me to have all of you to share my successes with. Having people who have supported me and my journey from the beginning has made everything all the more fun.

There hasn't been much I could share lately, but I've been working a lot. My focus is on a new film project,  which has become a full time job, and needs to be my first priority. Trying to keep up with an etsy shop on top of that has just become too much to keep up with. So, I'm going to be shutting down the shop permanently, in order to make the transition into set design. I'll miss the shop, it was a lot of fun, but this is a decision I'm super happy with, and it is definitely time to make the leap. :)

The next post will share all the details, press release style-- the official closing date (later this month) and all of that. But this post is really for all of you guys who read my ramblings to the end, who I can share my thoughts with, who have always been so excited and supportive when I post photos of my etsy goodies and such.  I'm thrilled that I'm able to end my time there on a successful note, and I hope you have all enjoyed shopping there. :)

Talk to you all soon!

smidge girl